Brethren, Adieu

[northerncougar]

Last week was a strange week for me. For the last 24 years, no matter how painful the loss, by the next game I was excited for BYU football again. I just couldn’t do it Friday. I found myself not wanting to go to the game. I have so much going on that I would rather have stayed home. That has never happened to be before. I enjoyed the game but my heart wasn’t in it. I found myself not caring, no matter how much I tried.

I suspect part of it was the opponent but mostly it is the frustration of losing to Utah. This season is now a failure for me and after 8 1-2 starts, and losing to Utah 9 of the last 12, I can’t care like I used to. Maybe that will change but I think the game last weekend finally broke me. I never thought this would happen, but I think it finally has.

The offense is still a mess and we are going to get worked on Friday night. Bronco knows D but his ability to hire the right OC is lacking. Anae 2.0 is Anae 1.0, just three years older.

It’s time for me to step away. I can’t follow every thing about the team anymore. My heart just isn’t in it. I’m sure I’ll be back from time to time to read what is posted here, but I won’t be posting anymore. I just wanted to thank most of you for some great times these past few years.

• To Hawkwing, I thank you for a great site.
• To many on here we have had some great discussions over the years. Sometimes I’ve been right, often I’ve been wrong, but I’ve always learned much about this team.
• To a few of you, well…

[hawkwing]

So long, and thanks for all the fish!

[snoscythe]

Generally people wait until AFTER General Conference to realize they spend too much time obsessing with football and message boards!

Take care, and hope to see you around.

[cougman]

I feel your pain. I got beat up on here pretty bad for expressing how badly I hate losing to Utah. A lot of fans have a way of just chalking it up as another game. Apparently that's the case for Bronco, too. Not me. Apparently not you either. Best.

[scott715]

See how you feel after we beat USU. Try watching some Lady Volleyball on KBYUtv. They are pretty good.

[mtnradio]

I understand where you are coming from.
There was something about that loss that hurt in ways other losses haven't ...

Hope you come back and enjoy the boards again. Best of luck to you!

[Wolverine]

Good luck with your family history as for me and my house, we will continue to cheer for and support our Cougars through the bad times as well as the good times. I get your pain. Heaven knows any true BYU fan has experienced the "dagger in the heart" sensation. My advice to you is buck up, rub some dirt on it, and get back in the saddle. Cougar Nation needs all the loyal true and blue that is out there.

[Cougarbib]

Wait - no press conference.

To each their own. Ironically, my original plans were to drive 720 miles Friday night. Nap. Utah Game. 2 days to visit family. Drive 720 miles Tuesday night since I have a crew renovating my house.

After the loss - I asked myself Tuesday how I could explain to myself why I could not squeeze out 3 more days. I had given away my 4 lower bowl side-line tickets. So I scalped an endzone sear and sat by myself Using a jacket I borrowed from my dad.

Grow a pair and come back when the band on the wagon cranks it back up.

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[Schmoe]

I can't help but express some empathy here; after the Utah loss, I have become more apathetic about this season than maybe any other before it. I'm still excited about what could happen this season, but I'm not expecting it. Sad to see you step away, Northern, but it can be good to reevaluate and figure out how much time and energy we put into something as silly as football. Hope to see you back from time to time as the season winds on.

[hawkwing]

I can definitely understand how he feels. This was the first year that I felt the Utah game was literally a "must win." BYU did not win, and now, regardless of how well we do the rest of the season, it will not be as magical as other great seasons.

But, those are the breaks, I put the game and the loss behind me and now I'm looking forward. We can still have a good year, just not a magical one.